Day 18
Experience emptiness ……
After the weeks of hectic schedule of moving and starting new job I experience the emptiness ,like everything stops……I mean …i see now how I am attached to energy ,how I move ,only because I feel fear ..,or I accumulate energy and I depend on this, and how I move ……and not recognizing my physical body….recognize ,meaning totally dismiss my physicality,being depended on energy.
So , I want to take responsibility for creating this polarity ,for allowing feeling this emptiness and almost depression feeling like …..
1.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself,to not seeing this what is happening ,meaning being totally in mind energy and creating polarity .
2.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to not stoping this business in the mind ,knowing that this is only will create energy ,energy ,which is not real,what is real is physical reality.
3.I forgive myself and accept and allowed myself ,to feel depression ,when all this commotion stop,not being constant and stable in my life ,in my physicality.
4.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself ,to be attached to energy , to not staying with breath , and because of this now experience like there is no life ,because the energy stop .
5.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself , to not writing at the time when I was ,so busy ,using this excuse to not to write ,not seeing that the writing will help me stay with physicality .
6.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself ,to feel lost and not knowing what to do ,only because the energy stop ,instead of living with breath and pushing myself to move in physical reality step by step ,doing what must be done .
7.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to not preparing my steps in physical reality ,so I can move study and slowly in physicality .
8.I commit myself to in order to stay stable in my physicality to prepare steps by steps plan in events of big changes and doing them ,and not depend on energy of the mind .
9.I commit myself to moving in physical reality with breath ,especially when is a challenge in my life ,or change in my life.
10.I commit myself to write self forgiveness process every day.
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